mood: upset, irritable and depressed...

hurhur, if u love reading abt screw ups, u sure r at the right place. my life is so full of them these days. f*cked up my chem pract so bad... just cuz of one bloody QA test which didn't produce the result. its so ridiculous tt if u dun see 1 result n u r screwed. and as yihan pointed out, all my observations are consequently wrong! ha. u see... Copper is blue, produces blue ppt. but the solution is yellow, so u always see yellow. in effect, u must write, blue ppt in yellow solution (which u can't see until u know its copper then u know u r supposed to see tt). well, the one test i failed to see e result required is the last one, where u are supposed to wash the copper residue, and it is supposed to turn from green to blue. well, almost all my residue was washed off, and it was still green... so wth!?! bah... and its so lame tt its called 'observations', yet normal human eyes obviously can't see those things they expect us to see... i poured the ppt w e solution on a tile, n guess what? it was still green ppt in green solution. whatever. so tt makes 2 for 2... wonder how many are coming. oh did i mention, my kinetics had results so off, its just... laughable. i dunno what to make of it at all... :P

guess when i'm in such a mood, i can be unreasonable. hmmmm, think i was unduly harsh, but i really got irritated by some things u said. sorry abt it...

anyway, after tt shit of a pract, hs, wk, claire n i went to swensons to pig out. well, tt sort of lifted our moods a little... good food usually does... :) then hs n i headed to orchard to get presents... i helped e class buy e presents (they wanted) for Mr Lim's teacher's day gift... they are... here!

stranglely enough, e one w less material costs more... haha. hope he doesn't kill us... :P this wasn't quite as embarrassing as when hs was shopping for underwear for presents for other pple... i promptly ran away from the lingerie section after a while... lol. but all in all, was quite fun... n took my mind off things for a while... :) nice to have nice pple round... :D

and... this is my cracked racket. this should dispel all allegations of racket abuse. just look at where the crack is! its on the inside, obviously due to the strain placed on the racket by the strings... :P

and yeah, played tennis yesterday... quite fun, but it was so hot, and my face is so red now... :( wasn't used to another racket i borrowed, and i was just desperately trying to control my shots. not the way i usually play, and well, it didn't pay off... bah. had a super close match against shihong, and lost in the end cuz i used the wrong tactics and plus the heat got to me... :/

Results:
QF
gary bt kd 4-2
ra bt aan 4-0
shihong bt alwyn 4-0

SF
ra bt gary 5-3
shihong bt xq 5-4(3)

Finals
shihong bt ra 5-3

xq/gary bt ra/ian 4-1

my wish list is getting longer and longer!! :/

went comex fair... and was mesmerised by all the electronice gadgets staring back at me. boy, i'm a sucker for sleek and silverish and slim electronice devices. just check out all e stuff i use n u'll get what i mean... ;) haha...

beauty isn't it? so chio... i'm like so in love... ahh...

yeah, its $849... haha. actually i've set my eyes on another camera too, but am too lazy to edit e pix cuz its gots lotsa things all over it... :P

Hmmmm... is Serena really gonna wear this denim outfit to the US Open?!! Haha, complete with leather looking like boots! :P Well, the denim is supposed to be quite cooling cuz it is made of 'Dri-fit" material... and the boots well, they could be unzipped to sneakers if u can't take the heat. I'm amazed at what they've come up with... Attention grabber for sure! :)

hurhur... i screwed up my physics pract... :/ haha... let's see, first pract, i didn't read the instructions completely, and hence, i missed out measuring something... bah. second pract is even more hilarious...! I'm supposed to measure this length L, but being lazy, i took the shorter length, thinking it was L, but... its actually 1-L (cuz its from the other end of the ruler). damn it... so, i was infact supposed to get some sort of curve n not a straight line... which i did. but i fixed e results to get a straight line, which is required. now i wonder what's gonna happen... lol!! :P

ah wells, whatever... went to play tennis after tt...

xq/yh bt yuan/cm 6-3
xq bt yuan 6-2

sighs, it would have been a great day, cuz i was striking the ball pretty well, except for the fact i freaking broke my racket again!! this is like the 3rd in less than 4 years?!! this will be my 5th or 6th time changing racket la... wah. i really liked my racket... i dun wanna change it. i dun even know why it broke, but it always breaks at the same place... :'( i think i frame my shots too much... bah. it always breaks at the edge there... so sad.

anyway, canteen aunty is being cheapskate. my laksa used to have half an egg in it, now she downgrade to 1 quail egg!! lol!

and i can't believe i watched this silly show on Channel 55. Hmmm, its the new 8 o'clock show, replacing the match making one. wah lao, its damn retarded. i can't believe i sat thru it. think i'm flippin' out... :P

well, the last official sch day is over... at last. i'm feeling so happy and relieved... :) i think i was really sick of sch, and it was e main cause of some unhappiness. which explained my happiness when i ponned lessons i guess? LOL!

anyway, just woke up from a nap... though lessons have ended, tmr marks the start of a whole new kind of challenge - the prelims. heh! haha, practical starts tmr... hope it goes well... :)

btw, if u wait a while for the song to load, its F.I.R.'s Lydia... haha, am quite in love w tt song now. yeah, surprise, i'm listening to a chinese song!! 你们是否很惊讶？lol... i'm not as potato as u guys think k. i dun listen to chinese songs cuz all sound similar, v sian. i do watch chinese serials what... :P AND i do n CAN speak chinese. yup, n thanks gary for intro-ing me to the CD, its nice!

there are just lotsa bitchy and mean pple in RJ, and i'm not talking abt those kinds who are jesting around. most of u probably heard abt the girl in my class who got an overwhelming no. of votes to be prom queen. why? cuz pple are trying to spite her. what bitches. do u even know her at all? its just appalling pple would do tt. poor girl, i hope she's alrite... :/

i'm so glad lessons are ending soon, i wanna get out of this hellhole... though mostly, times maybe great due to great friends around, but in the end, the feeling of emptiness still sets in. somehow, it was far more enjoyable in certain respects in Sec sch... pple were more innocent, and we had more fun... :) pple are less mean too... haha.

relationships these days are so fragile... i dread to think of what may happen. hope nothing happens... >.< sighs... yeah, nick, zp n i studied at nick's place today. didn't do tt much work, but i dunno, i was just tired and grumpy. bah... hope he's feeling better though... maybe our company helped? :) hope so...

and hmmm, i seriously doubt i can go to a nice uni in US... lol, i get the impression tt i'll get not so good references cuz of my not good behavior in class. guess sleeping and smsing don't help huh. too late to do anything now though, no more lessons... haha, regrets. things have certainly not been going well... :P and now there's even pple bitching abt me, and even on my blog. whatever. lol... new surprises everyday... ;)

sighs, was in quite a foul mood today... :( maybe its the weather, or the fact i felt groggy and had a splitting headache. but most likely, its cuz i didn't wanna be in sch - waste of my time... it sucks tt the top jc in singapore is freaking inefficient. i can't believe tt they still haven't fixed the sch bell after a week. haha, of course there're a zillion other things one can think of, but i guess i shouldn't...

ah well, but there were times tt did make my day better... :) thanks... :)

it seems from the looks of things tt everyone has gotten into gear to mug... library is forever filled, pple are mugging everywhere, attendance is low in LTs... hmmm, wonder what it takes to make me realise i should start soon... *rolleyes*. its interesting tt i've 2 grps of friends round me... 1 grp tt's still happily enjoying themselves, and the other getting desperate - tuition, seeing teachers, practising tonnes. but sad to say (and no offense to u guys), tt i think i know the pple enjoying themselves will probably end up doing far better still. yeah, life's just unfair isn't it? lol...

i totally had the intention of going to school later today (in abt 5h)... haha... rite. but since i've stayed up so late, i guess i can't do anything abt it... aww... :( not like i'm missing much, its only 3h of sch... slp is more impt! ;)

anyhow... so sad li jiawei didn't get e medal... but her best chance was in the semis... ah wells, its another long 4 year wait... :( i was really rooting for her... and those pple claiming she's a foreign import... so? she's trained with us for 8 years... its more than a third of her life.

the pix on the left is one which i skilfully combined 2 pix i found on the net... not bad rite? :P k, its a bit creepy though... lol. mood's lifted over the past week... :) i'm sure most can tell... :P ponning lessons makes pple happy... lol. and yes!! hopefully the 5 day work week means the same for NS. i get to book out on fridays!! and tt with the shortened NS service time... i'm so grateful... :)

anyway, below's a pix of the guys i played tennis w... from left, shihong, alwyn, me, ks, ra... gary was the camera man... and for the record, he's the black tart in the pix below...

phew, past 2 days were really fun! :)

friday was a short day for me, cuz i decided to come to sch at 9, and leave at 1230... :P
self imposed break... ;) was accused of being a PS... no, not ponstar or pornstar, but a pang4 se3... lol.

today (sat) was fun cuz i managed to slp lots, and actually mug! i was so pleased... only blemish was the shitty choke by Li jiawei...! was rooting so hard for her till my mum thot i'd gone mad. and she lost!! :'( so our medal hopes are gone again... sighs.....

then... played tennis in the evening! woot... was fun! :P
here are the results:

Round Robin:
gary bt xq 5-4(6)
shihong bt ian 4-0
xq bt shihong 4-2
gary bt ian 4-2
xq bt ian 5-3
gary bt shihong 4-1
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alwyn bt ks 4-1
ra bt ks 4-1
ra bt alwyn 5-3

Semis:
gary bt alwyn 4-2
xq bt ra 5-4(1)

Finals:
gary bt xq 7-0

dunno what to say abt most of my matches. all i can say is tt i made them so much harder than they should've... i wasted 3 MPs against gary in the first match and ended up losing. then against shihong, i had chances at 3-1 to close out the match too, but failed. then against ra, was leading 3-2, had MPs, and failed to convert them too... gosh! my serve helped me win against ra and shihong, and against ian sometimes too... groundies weren't fantastic, missed so many sitters. and backhand was ... bleah. i need to restring... :@

hurhur, guess its retribution tt gary won every match, he was being written off... hope u feel more confident now... :P so embarrassing to lose 7-0 in the finals... but i was so tired, after playing such long and exhausting matches... :( so fun, must play again soon! :p

oh yeah, dinner was hilarious... all the jokes spewing forth... lol!

lovely vee poster someone sent me... well, it made me feel better abt the lost... ;)

stinks... susilo broke down and lost. was so hoping he'd pull this out of the bag, and then we'd have something to celebrate soon... but he just crumbled under a pile of mistakes.

then vee loses. wth is she doing?! more mistakes, but to lose to mary pierce?! sighs... it just sucked... :( her year has sucked so bad, i dunno if she should play anymore this year... hope she gets her stuff together soon.

hur, and i lost horribly too today. think its the 2nd bagel i've to swallow ever...! quite sucky considering how close the games were. arghh whatever.

so tired... am aiming to slp early tonite. dun care abt the piles of work already la... slp is of paramount importance. i'm feeling old and hagard... lol.

arghhh, i'm surprised i agreed to go for the prom in the end. i'm kinda reluctant. its just silly IMO to pay 70 to go suntec when our seniors paid 60 to go shangri-la. as hs said, its sth a lot of pple have been looking forward to, and it sucks to be screwed like this... i just hope tt the turn out is good, so far is abysmal... and i wun go if tt's whats gonna happen. so be it if the money is wasted. hurhur, so of the nominations are quite amusing though... for 'prom king n queen'. (note the quotation marks.)

anyhow, sch has been rather a great waste of time. what's the great use of attending if u've yet to done practise papers when they're going thru? its just not the way i operate. i study first, and practise close to exam cuz i wanna be in gear for doing papers. tt's just the way i work, and it works for me. so y am i forced to practise now? sighs.

but after 2 lecture tests, i guess e fact tt prelims r coming has sunk in. bah... i can't tell u how relieved i'm to have done well for bio... its just not been coming together this year... and i'm just sooo relieved... :) i think in the end, thinking is more impt than mugging as much as everyone feels otherwise. hur, chem lect test is a totally different ball game though. i was half in dreamland when taking it this morning. lol...

anyway, was talking to a a couple of pple abt relationships today. interesting views they have. one was like, even if u r like in a relationship, u dun have to be in one. tt way, if u go separate ways, then u can say, we were never together n thus not feel so sad. plus, u can date others if u r not official.... hmmm, i must say, even i am not prepared for such a radical pt of view. to me, its a fling then. lol. pple in sch these days get together and separate so easily... its really scary... :/ there's more, but i dunno how to put those things in words. brain's lazy. :P

watched vee vs lindsay today. so sad she got injured. seems like everytime she looks set to do sth great, her body stops her. bah. her sad look made me sympathise w her lots... :(

agrhhh, so ridiculous, my mum refuses to let me wash my clothes cuz of her superstitions... sth abt hungry ghost festival, if u hang clothes to dry at nite, they might get trapped in yr clothes... *rolleyes*...

anyways, i feel RETARDED... so blur... chem test is tmr, and i thot it was on thurs, and yesterday i was just happily doing other things, now i've to cramp everything in a day... or what's left of it now... lol. at least i was smart enough to pon bio lect to mug a little... ;)

yesterday, watched susilo win his match! so proud of him, felt so happy for S'pore (more so than during any stupid speeches or NDP stuff)... he almost choked, but he kept it all together... :) meanwhile, was watching some really great fencing bouts! woo, they're good, fancy and precise bladework, amazing footwork too... i really miss fencing, its a sport tt is so mental. u think of what u wanna do, and try yr best to do it, adapting and changing as yr opponent does, and finding loopholes in his defence... :D

anyhow, i'm officially sick of jap food and swensons. went to sakae (again) w yh today for lunch... ate some different stuff, but the food there is quite limited in a sense... but ooh, the ipod mini is so pretty!! i'd so love to have one... lol... ;)

tennis was great today... i think i'm on my way to fixing my forehand... sorta changed my grip and swing a little, seemed to work fine. backhand down the line was impeccable... hit so many right on the line or in the corner today... :D

i need inspiration... to start mugging... lol.
Mr Lim is scaring us by telling us how hard the physics test is... somehow i believe its true... :(((

this is the acid stains in the chem lab... :P


wow, slept at 4am yesterday chatting and trying to watch olympics opening ceremony... died today... was dragged by my parents to attend the scholarship day in sch today... i must admit it was decent actually. i guess i wun mind taking one if i get to study what i want and work in a nice place... :)

interesting to see the track and netball court being used as a car park...


had a super filling lunch w my parents and nick at crystal jade... overestimated our abilities to eat... but nothing was wasted cuz da bao for my sis... :P then rotted around, dozing off frquently the whole day... :/ can't seem to start mugging damn it.

grandma's bday was nice... i gotta see my cousin again! :) sat next to him, and he was telling me all abt his NS and stuff... haha, not terribly reassuring though... ;) and lol, he got to go back early to camp cuz he failed a safety theory test...! lol... :P vegetarian food sucks, its so oily, i feel like puking... :( am so lethargic once again... sigh!

phew... tired after long tennis session, but more on tt later... anyway, past 2 days have been better... i guess after every down there's an up, plus nice TV shows and great friends never fail to cheer up... :D maybe the fact tt i've been able to go home earlier now adays is good too... ;)

anyway, i bought my 256MB memory card! it was only 80, and now my phone can effectively function an MP3 player, just as well since my discman is cranky... stupid salesman gave me my $1 change in 10 cent coins though... :(

train ride yesterday was amusing... there was this old man, who stepped into the train and turned to this aunty, who is quite old herself, then said, 'Oi!' and pointed to the sign behind her. it was the sign which said pls give up yr seat to the more needy or sth like tt... it was so ungentlemanly and in fact, just out right rude. but i also saw 2 instances of nice pple giving up their seats to others... :) yay, always good to know there're nice pple round... then there were pple taking up 2 seats cuz they were so fat or just plain refused to try to sit in their own seat. so ridiculous! i mean can u let 2 pple sit instead u fat arses!? lol...

anyhow i really need to start on revision soon... having lunch w hs yesterday made me realise some pple are so freaking motivated (no, not u hs... :P), and i need to spur myself on too!! rite... like it'd work.

today during chem pract, i did something v fun... i found some part of the floor, tt looked like it was made of some stone n not concrete, so i poured acid on it, and surprised, it started reacting and producing bubbles and gas! lol... maybe if i do enough, they'd be a crevice? :P

tennis was fun today! after hitting wildly for fun, i decided to keep more balls in play, and towards the end, i was finally getting some feel again after not feeling anything with these crappy strings for some time... like yesterday, it was so bad, i gave up hitting any groudstrokes and went to serve... :/ was DISMAL!! ra's court sense is impressive, and al's forehand is still something i wanna try to learn... :P refused to run much cuz my joints and muscles are all v strained... :( they kinda hurt... anyway, i managed to hit cm w a ball again today... lol, and then yh, and then alwyn! i hit yh and alwyn consecutively! quite, shocking!! and alwyn got hit a few times, must be the attention seeking bright orange shirt... the balls got attracted... :o anyway, i'm sorry yh and al, and i meant to hit u cm... :P

hmmm, was planning to slp after fixing my tagboard... see, the textboxes and buttons look so good now...! :D but, i decided slping's a waste of time... so maybe i wun slp... lol.

anyway, so dumb... i'm glad i gave up mugging for bio test yesterday n enjoyed myself chatting... it would've been such a waste of time cuz it was mostly application... bah... it wasn't as bad as the last lecture test though... lol, tt one was just hilarious... ;)

these few days have been ok... monday i had an og outing! was fun to meet my ogls and og mates again. but bus 16, cuz of nicoll highway collapse took so long to reach orchard i was half an hour late! then we went swenson's (i'm so sick of it, cuz i went there today again n on friday too, so 3 of five days?!)... and after our maincourses, we happily wanted to order the now famous $1.39 topless 5... but they said, 'sorry, we dun have it here'.. so i asked y, and they said, dunno, only this branch dun have. and we were like... WTH! bah... nvm, our ogls treated us to earthquakes instead... good bargain eh? ;) dun have photos we took yet, but i've one i took w my phone... its one of Jeremy, the MONSTER... eating the melted and gooey remains of our earthquake... so gross... :/ haha, at first our ogls tried to play a prank on us, they said they'd draw money, and after like 0.5h, they called and said, opps, we're not coming back. then they were hiding behind some window looking at our reactions... err... nice try, but we aren't tt stupid hor. at most we pawn yr digi cam to pay lor... :P



singapore idol has been the talk of the town, we william hung wannabes, and retarded banana men! gee, i never knew there so many desperados out there?!! but i was laughing my stomach out watching damn... it was sooo much more entertaining than the stupid NDP. my only highlight was tt i managed to spot nick's dad on tv... lol, first time i spotted someone i know can?! :D

plus i'm so sad... hs managed to get a 128MB MMC for her phone free, and a bluetooth headset too! and i got nothing?!! and i paid more for my phone... *rolleyes* ah well, tt's for buying when it first came out... hmmmph, i shall save money and get a 256MB MMC! :P

firstly, all the 'u' in the posts are not referring to anyone i've a crush on, though they may refer to a person... lol. i think i should use less 'u's... :/

today was 'trying to mug day'... but failed as usual. i'm half way thru... but its almost 10pm... anyway, at nick's hse, it was kinda fun, it took my mind off stuff for e day - talking abt greater stuff, making me feel wise beyond my years (hey, am just crapping la)... n of course, interesting smses tt woke me up helped too... ;)

guess, when i went home, i returned to my brooding mood again... sigh. basically, today was spent wondering abt y i'm alive, and what i'm gonna do w my life... i just find it meaningless to be keep doing sth, just cuz u're expected to do it... tt's how i've lived most of my past 18 years... pathetic. (lol, maybe yh's rite too, i just dun wanna mug for bio test, so i'm coming up w lotsa lame excuses) but seriously, its been something i've been thinking abt... in anycase chat w him helped me sort out some thots, n i confirmed most... guess tt's all i should say... if i say anymore, i'd probably just scare everyone away... :P

anyway, thanks for tt unexpected MMS, brightened things up 4 me... it was scrolling so fast though! ;) :P

i feel i've changed so much in the past year, esp the past few months... and i'm not sure why... but i know i've. hmmm, being yrself, what is it really? what if, i've actually been hiding my true self, and now when i'm being real u think i'm putting on a mask? could it be? what do u say to tt..? i dunno...

maybe i dunno myself either. and most certainly, v few others know me... everything not factual abt me is hidden... sometimes, bits and pieces come out to a select few, but since its bits and pieces afterall, no one has a picture i guess... sad. is tt what i know of everyone around me too? haha, maybe we all have our own dark secrets...

well, i think everyone who reads this will actually interpret it in a different manner. but it'd probably be rite, whatever u r thinking...

i guess i agree... i'm really a bad organiser, not only of events, but of my life too... i'm just insane... why the hell, do i agree to do so many things, even when i dun feel like it, or know full well tt i'll just not have the energy to do it?!! its just dumb... and sometimes, i just break my promises as a result... i feel so bad for not going to watch the fireworks display w u though i agreed, but i'm really quite tired, and i need a quiet evening to recharge myself... :/ and sorry for sat and thurs too... :( sigh... i'm always in a rush, and usually late and... i dunno...

though i'm really looking forward to tmr's og reunion, i'm not quite sure if i'd have the energy to sustain myself though... :P sometimes, the rite pple are the key i feel... some pple just bring in so much energy, it rubs off! :)

anyway, tennis today was fun... was damn hot, and we played 4h?! played cluedo t0 britney (music) after tt! LOL!! but didn't get to hit against 3 pple though... and sometimes, i feel i've poor social skills... i dun commit myself to interacting w other pple... :/ anyway thanks for coming pple, had quite some fun, though my face is burnt... :'( n thnx 4 e (handmade!) card! so sweet of u... :P and alwyn, i think the movie is good, but dun kill me if u dun think so... :/

kinda been a happy day despite my lack of slp... maybe its a carry over from last nite... was so happy n engrossed tt i lost track of time, lol... and maybe cuz... ;)

hmmm, but to earth... this morning was quite amusing... was slping, and phone beeped, read the msg, but fell aslp b4 i replied... happened twice. then phone rang, and had no choice but to answer. then went back to slp, when actually, cm was at vj and wanted to come over. and he did, and i was still slping... haha. glad he made me go to vj for the exhibition on US unis, it was way better than anything rj has organised... found out most of the stuff i'd have wanted to... :)

went shopping today... damn fun! bought 2 pairs of adidas shoes... they're so much better than 'spoil fast' nike... haha, and cuz it was queensway, and i've bought quite a few pairs from tt lady b4, she gave me such a cheap price! abt 30% off? :P and when my mum was trying to baragain more by saying she got no money to pay, the lady said, 'dun give me this kinda of drama mama...' LOL!! i almost burst out laughing, obviously she said it in a jesting manner, and u know, the indian accent and head shaking thing... LOL...

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hmmm, quite a few of u guys, and perhaps myself have many dreams, dreams we hope to realise. sometimes, these goals may seem impossible to achieve, and u feel like giving up and just pretending they never existed... but i know they're impt, for some of u, its been a lifelong dream. so please keep believing, keep trying. dun give up... and i'm sure u'll succeed eventually... dun ever abandon yr dreams.

anyway, here's a song tt i was introduced to in the weirdest of circumstances... ;) (yes, its the '96 olympics song) anyway, i really love it, and if u wish to listen to it, i can send it to anyone of u guys, just tell me... :P

Reach, Gloria Estefan

Some dreams live on in time forever
Those dreams, you want with all your heart
And I'll do whatever it takes
Follow through with the promise I made
Put it all on the line
What I hoped for at last would be mine

If I could reach, higher
Just for one moment touch the sky
From that one moment in my life
I'm gonna be stronger
Know that I've tried my very best
I'd put my spirit to the test
If I could reach

Some days are meant to be remembered
Those days we rise above the stars
So I'll go the distance this time
Seeing more the higher I climb
That the more I believe
All the more that this dream will be mine

If I could reach, higher
Just for one moment touch the sky
From that one moment in my life
I'm gonna be stronger
Know that I've tried my very best
I'd put my spirit to the test
If I could reach

If I could reach, higher
Just for one moment touch the sky
I'm gonna be stronger
From that one moment in my life
I'm gonna be so much stronger yes I am
Know that I've tried my very best
I'd put my spirit to the test
If I could reach higher
If I could, If I could
If I could reach
Reach, I'd reach, I'd reach
I'd reach' I'd reach so much higher
Be stronger

For those who need it... n u know who u are... ;)

k... i'm officially burnt out and spent... i actually decided not to go out tmr to pool and shop. i can't take another day of squeezing in trains and crowded eateries, queueing up, etc. so i'll just go out w my parents, where i get to enjoy the luxury of a car, and all expenses paid stuff... ;)

today was tiring... wth, i stayed up till 1.30 to write a $%@^$ personal essay. anyway, had fun in sch today though... watched my class win handball match! and also, was so shocked to see the teachers playing tennis, and i joined in, in my baggy pants and all... hehe, mr lim was impressed w me... :P wah, then this PE teacher came, ripping all his FHs and BHs, and BH 1 handed somemore! too bad i didn't hit w him...

after tt - it was so dumb. was gonna watch The Village w hs, wk, aaron and claire... i bked tix yesterday. hs, wk and aaron went to hs's house to bath... i was just talking to pple in sch. and talk talk talk, and i forgot the time, apparently the others did too, and despite cabbing to PS, i reached at 1.35pm, and tix were cancelled. wth... and no more tix when i went to the booth.....!!! haiz... then i bought tix for House of Flying Daggers... and no one wanted to watch... :'( and so we sold them, and bought The Village tix at a later time in Marina. hey, at least the seats were good, and it was a digital screen!! so cool, the graphics are fab!! :D but then squeezy la, no leg room. The Village was great... nice twists and great directing... catch it if u've time. too bad i feel aslp during commercials, and hs didn't wake me up till like, i dunno which part. bah... i need help to solve my sleeping disease.

oh oh, there's such a wonderful offer at swensons... for 39 days (ah ha, tt's how old our nation is, i figured...), Topless 5, no its 5 topless ice cream la pls, only costs... SGD1.39!! go eat la, such value for money. and no, there are no other conditions... except, must be b4 5pm... :P

yeah, played tennis with ra (shouldn't it be ry actually?) and alwyn... sighs, i was sucking. everything was flying long... i still can't get used to my strings. hope they break soon... :@ alwyn's FH is such a beauty... i'm inspired to improve mine... sighs, not like i've not been trying actually. and ry is the epitome of consistency... i just pale in comparison... :(

haiz, enough of fiddling w the blog... i'll just fix it another day...

apprentice is quite a nice show! :D omarosa is such a bitch... but i think she's got attitude, and damn funny too! LOL... i should learn how she skives and gets away w it man... i think it'd come in useful. afterall, i get caught slping so often... :(

anyway, whatever... have to write a personal essay for mrs singh. i dun believe i've to do tt... :@

dumbness... i deleted my template for my blog, and 4 those of u who dunno what i'm talking abt, it just means tt my blog and all its formatting was deleted.

and yes, i'm so stupid tt i didn't have the sense to backup my template... wth.
so i spent 2 hours of my precious time, searching for a suitable new template and fixing it up... this is actually a combination of 2... hope they dun discover i completely mutilated their templates... :/

ah well, i guess this was the motivation i needed to change my template.

tiring day... fell asleep during bio lecture again. geez, i can't believe this is the subject i'm intending to take in uni... will i be making the wrong choice? possibly... :( and one less career choice for me now... my math teacher doesn't think i should even consider engineering. i said in class, tt 0.004 doesn't really matter (which i still maintain it doesn't), and so it sparked off tt comment. whatever... lol

GP was fun today, finished watching the Matrix... think when i first watched it i was too young (and w the wrong company) to actually understand the philosophical side much... but now, it does make a lot more sense... my opinion of philosophy is rapidly changing. i used to think it was just a useless discipline where pple sit around, talking abt (useless) things, and try to formula (useless) theories... hmmm, i sort of find it interesting now, and some of these things, though not useful at all, do set yr mind thinking...

played tennis in the afternoon... on our way back, we passed RI, and saw a long stream of students going for cross country run... remember in the past, it was the single most dreaded for me. i hated it... 4.8km run, haha, i doubt i'd ran so much in any month combined otherwise... haha... yes i hate running... :P anyway, yh's place had crazy people playing at 2pm?! which crazy pple other than pple like us would play at this time?! so i, but not the other 2, happily went to RI to play. gosh, i missed those times in sec 3 n 4, when we would go back on weekends, or stay back on weekdays to play... it was so fun, n we never had to worry abt e courts not being available. all the long and incredible 3 set matches... still remember tt one tt i managed to squeak out against yuan, 1-6 7-6(?) 6-4... hee. was a definitive match... i was down so many times in the match, 3-4, break down, game pts down, match pts down in the 2nd set... and in the hot sun at 11-1, haha... too bad such matches wun happen again cuz yuan is not as patient as he used to be... :( hmmm, and the drinks are still as cheap as ever! :p which RJ vending machines were so forgiving on the pockets... :p

anyway, played a match!! finally played a set kinda match:
xq df yh 6-4

was kinda crappy, both of us making a million errors... :( shit, i hate my new strings. they're so thick, and just like i guessed, its impossible to add any/much spin to the ball, therefore, it makes it hard to keep the ball in, or even get it over the net. sighs.................. :(

plan for the week n more:
thurs: do work, watch apprentice
fri: go out and pool/lan?
sat: shop - i need new shoes, plus, i wanna watch 'The Village'. interested pple, pls contact me... lol
sun: tennis
mon: og outing (oh man, can't believe we still meet up, love ya guys!!)
tues: mug mug mug!!

pple, pls help make sure i mug on tues... i'm gonna die if i dun start!! :(

such a sian day... feel so lethargic, i actually turned down a game of DOTA (computer game)... must be the 1st time ever...

bah, there were some interesting moments today. taiwan exchange students were so hilarious! gave such a wonderful speech then had all of us laughing our guts out. nice thing to have 1st thing in the morning! :D then later on, during a break, michelle (cow u...!) wanted to ask the taiwanese to help her buy comics *rolleyes*, but then didn't dare go speak to tt guy. so we all started to make fun of her, and suggesting she was crushing him. ha. then, aaron went up to him and said, there's a girl over there who wants to talk to u, and we all conveniently moved aside to expose her. LOL... poor michelle was blushing away - i'd have taken a pix if my phone was low on batt. wth man, both my batteries were going flat.... grrr. plus, my discman too, no wonder i feel so fatigued too. haha...

in fact, i'm so lethargic, i've failed to finish any hw yet. god, its really piling up. i really wonder how i coped earlier this year, when i had training 3 times a week till 7+, plus 2 'S' paper sessions till 7+ too, and CIP till 9 on another day. if the current me was trying to cope w those commitments... haha, good luck to myself...

ha, my hair is superbly brown now somehow. its pretty obvious now... :/ ah well, i'll get away w it - somehow... :P think i'm too vain for my own good sometimes... no wonder i get such silly nicknames. arghhh.

anyhow, sometimes i wonder what my friends around me are thinking... yeah, i worry too much abt 'not impt, i.e. not studies' related things too much... i'm cynical as to whether my friends r interested in being friends, or they're just putting up w me. of course, i'm not referring to everyone, so dun send me hate msges or whatever.

sighs... i was actually in quite a good mood today in sch and all, but somehow it has soured...

slept at 2+ last nite chatting with my WTA World friends... it was fun and all, but i'm having a hangover of sorts, probably due to the lack of sleep? ;) haha...

in the morning it drizzled again, but i didn't care, and made full use of my PE lesson, hitting against the wall. was trying to work on my forehand - and it seemed better. anyway, then boring lessons as usual, and i just left quite promptly after school cuz i was tired... :P had a nice haircut, and now, my dye job is showing cuz my hair is thinner. its got a nice blondish brown look... i like it! :D too bad i think the hairdresser wun be here much longer... i'll miss the convenience and the nice hair dressers there... :(

after not playing w my coach for sometime, i decided to go back to him to work on a few things cuz my game's been declining. and shit, it sure didn't make me feel good. its gotta be the worse i've played in quite sometime. i think almost half the balls flew long or hit the net. maybe 3 days of hitting wet and heavy balls has affected my rhythm... :( whatever, am not happy abt it...

currently in a pensive mood... a lot more these days. prefer more silence. quite a huge change... maybe i know y, maybe i dun. haha. i hope i dun live to regret the decisions i'm making now. i've regretted some things i did last year, and even some things i did recently. i used to be so sure of everything i did, and i never looked back. how things have changed... pathetic.

anyway, i'm currently thinking tt, even though our society makes us seem like we are very social creatures, deep down inside, are we really? in our frenzy in applying for unis, and thinking of prospective jobs, how many of us actually considered anything else other than ourselves? i guess its easier for me to pretend to be non chalant i guess. easier for me to interact w everyone around me.

i do like change. but i dun want somethings to change, not the friendships i've forged, the pple i've got to know. and i'm going to lose it all so soon. its scary... haha.

and talking to some pple abt their love lifes, somewhat made me realised tt despite everyone around me, tt make me happy, all the things around me, tt make me happy, there's still something missing. the sunset today was gorgeous, orange and purplish. but too bad, there was no one there to share it w me. when will it be my turn for tt special someone to find me?

been playing lotsa tennis these days... but its all good and fun... :P
wish i had the talent to be a professional, then i wun have to be studying... ;)

past few days have not been terribly interesting... friday was the last Bio S session... guess its good cuz Bio S has always been a waste of my time... :(

Chem pract test was silly, all the toxic fumes made me feel horrible... :/ S02, Cl2, Br2 and whatever else tt i failed to detect... LOL...

Sat, after tennis, which was annoying cuz of persistent drizzling, we went to suntec for the scholarship exhibition. Some exhibition it was... *rolleyes* wth, a few pathetic booths?! met wanping, allen and jisam there though. after tt, yh, yuan and cm left, and i went shopping w nick to get zp's bday pressie. haha, i had to ask him some... errr... explicit questions to help us decide what to get for him. it went something like... shit or SM? LOL... bought some nice stuff for myself too! sorry hs, the pencil case u gave me was really too small, so i upgraded it... ;)

anyway tennis results:

yuan df yh 3-7 7-4 8-6
yh df xq 7-3 7-4
xq df yuan 7-4 7-5

realised tt i can't play anyone consistent when i'm being wild, i just get destroyed. last week against 'martina' and this week against yh... :'(

oh, and then this one:

shihong/'martina' df gary/xq 7-4 5-7 7-4

LOL, was darn amusing this one... we didn't switch sides and stuff, and i, as usual, wasn't keeping track of the score, and neither was gary. i was thinking... eh, how come the 2nd set so long haven't end... and soon enough, the match was over. hahaha.... then i asked, what was the score, and i was shocked we played 3 sets... :P